October 6 - 15, 1961

October 6 - Friday


Oh those nasty Physics experiments. They’re driving me nuts. I’m late too and how they bug me. We had our Holy Hour this afternoon and I nearly fell asleep during the sermon but bravely kept my peepers open. Magu who was beside me could not. We also had our Student Council trial which was very interesting. I listened to the radio this afternoon after school. PS. I returned Luli’s sweater and had a lively talk with Maripi Gomez and Maritoni Ayesa during Recess today. I never thought I was capable of liking a boy so much as I do Carlos. I think of him every minute almost involuntarily and when I think of him and picture him in my mind I get all flushed and my pulse races. This is all very disturbing because I can’t concentrate on anything else. Every time I see that wonderful smile and those brown eyes I go to pieces (Gee, I thought of the song title before Patsy Cline did!) All in vain. They say nothing is impossible but for me, this saying has so far held true. “It is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.” I disagree!!!!!! Love hurts so much!



October 7 - Saturday

I went shopping with Mom this morning. I was so tired when we finished. The heat and noise and the crowded Echague and Carriedo streets positively got on my nerves. I felt like wishing myself in Baguio where there are pine trees and a cold, clear, fresh atmosphere....I went to the ANC later and ate lunch with Marina and Leslie Suter. Then Marina went home and I stayed with Nacho and his girlfriend and Ramon Faustman. Ramon is a mere boy and so polite. More than a dozen girls are crazy over him and he’s only 15 or 16! Later, Luli and Conchita arrived and we went on a drive around the boulevard in Luli’s car. We talked about Tony, Linggoy, and Carlos. Luli was telling me how Carlos’ parents and relatives were killed by those brutal Japs during WW II. To think I might see him tomorrow makes me tingle all over. Just 24 hours to go. Mercy and I talked a long time over the phone this evening. Tony O was at the ANC this morning and Mercy was quite excited. What was he doing there?!!



October 8 - Sunday

I went to Mass in school at 7:30 AM then later to the ANC. Lita, Luli, Conchita and Arno were there. We sat in the Teen Den and chatted. Next to Carlos I like Arno best. He is a wonderful person. Nacho was there too. Ate lunch at the ANC then Lita, Luli, Conchita and I went to the Rizal to see “Carry On Teacher.” It was very funny and suddenly while I was laughing I looked up and saw Carlos standing 3 feet away from me. My heart stopped and my hands went ice cold. Then he sat in the row in front of us with Mari Ojeda, Jimmy Alba, etc. The movie went blank for me from then on. I mean, with Carlos less than a foot away from me ....After the movie we met Linggoy and Arno outside. Conchita was on the verge of hysteria and all I could see was Carlos’s face. We went to Dairy Queen to buy ice-cream and then we went to the ANC. We sat in the Party Room and chatted. Conchita, Luli, Mercy, and Lita are the nicest girls I know.......



October 9 - Monday

It wasn’t a blue Monday today. In fact, I was very happy today. Just the thought of having seen Carlos has made me happy for the whole week. I did simply awful in my test in Speech. Out of 50 numbers I got seven right. I visited the chapel and said my special prayer to St. Jude with Marina. If St. Jude answers this prayer I’ll be so happy. I’d be indebted to him the rest of my life. Our essay in Tagalog today was about LOVE and it said that true love is when you wish for the happiness of the other person; when you shed tears when you’ve quarreled; or even when you end up despising or hating that person that you really love - well, the only name that comes to my mind is Cosme! (Oh, good grief, this is such a pathetic entry.)



October 10 - Tuesday

Finally gave in all my experiments today, all my book reports and themes - phew! There only remains my Tagalog theme. Magu was absent today. Same old routine in school. I love Mrs. Buencamino but gosh how I despise Physics. I hate, hate, hate it!!!! And those horrible semestral exams are on Tuesday. Heaven knows what I’ll get. I don’t even want to think about it. Oh well. I went to Bingo this evening with Luli and her Tita Mercy. We didn’t win anything but we chatted a lot. I’m so sleepy so I’m signing off early tonight.



October 11 - Wednesday

I was absent this afternoon from school since I wanted to start my extra report on History. I’ve typed six pages out tonight and I’m beat, I’m so tired. We were reviewing our Physics today for the exams and I’m alarmed because I don’t know anything and man, like blank, man. I don’t feel well right now so this is going to be short. I like Carlos so much that even when I’m talking I find myself mentioning his name for no reason at all. Boy I get farther into orbit every minute. ........



October 12 - Thursday

Gosh, how I hate getting out of bed on cold rainy mornings like today (Still do!!!) I look at myself in the mirror and I wash my face quickly before the mirror cracks. I always forget to say my morning prayers. No wonder St. Jude is deaf ears to me. Tomorrow I won’t forget. I was absent from class this pm. I was typing out this history report. D-day gets nearer and nearer. Tuesday - exam in Physics and to think I don’t know ANY (and I mean - NONE!) principle correctly. If I get 50% out of 200 questions I’ll be lucky. Margotin is such a nice kid at times. We had a lot of fun during Physics class. I enjoyed “Father Knows Best” on TV tonight. Talked with Mercy and Nena over the phone. Mary Ann Ojeda came to school today after a week of absence. She had the flu. I like her a lot. She’s a real happy kid. Only 3 more days and Sunday. I might see you know who again!!!

October 13 - Friday


Well, I did forget my morning prayers. My memory is about as bad as Rip Van Winkle’s honestly! I can remember some things so vividly but tell me to do something or bring something and poof! I forget. Mrs. Buencamino is an old darling. I think I passed in Math just because of her mercy. Otherwise..I skipped classes again this pm. I finally finished my History report on World War II and the UN. All I need now is a picture of the United Nations. I’ve discovered I’ve got a terrific imagination and I day dream too much which usually gets me nowhere. I saw Jimmy ???ton on TV tonight and is he a dream! What a dimpled chin and cheeks. If Mari thinks he looks like him he’d better take another look in the mirror.....tomorrow’s another day. STUDY, STUDY, STUDY for those exams!



October 14 - Saturday

I went to the ANC to study with Marina but we did everything BUT study. Arno, Leslie, Mary Ann, Ditas, Jessica and Nena were there. Arno was with me the whole day. I like him a lot. He is so nice and next to Carlos he’s the boy I like most of all the creeps around here. Nena looked so pretty today. (When doesn’t she!) She had almost no make-up on and she has cut her hair and it looks so casual and pretty, but she’s still the same old Nena. Just as loveable and crazy as ever. Nacho was there with his “chota” too. Jessica Hagedorn had her portable phono and we danced and played records. The La Salle Juniors lost today in their game against Letran. Maybe Mari will lower his head a little now. I probably won’t see Carlos tomorrow since the picture at the Rizal’s objectionable. (I wonder what the movie was.) Oh well, there’s next week which will seem like an eternity. Ugh, those horrid exams. Talked with Mercy over the phone. Arno is so nice.



October 15 - Sunday

I put on my new crepe dress this morning for Mass. I went with Mom at 11 am at the Ermita. I saw Linda V. Nacho and Tita Carmen Marti were there too. Later, I went to the ANC. Lita, Luli, Conchita, Marina and Arno were there. Nacho came too. Arno looked very attractive in navy blue. He started teasing me again but I guess it was because Nacho was there. When Nacho’s not around he’s so nice. Just like Cosme. When none of his friends were around, he would be so nice but when any of the Falcons were with him, man I really got it! I ate lunch at the ANC then we came home. I had to study for exams tomorrow (shudder). San Beda beat La Salle today by 6 points. Butch Catala is on the team although I didn’t see him play tonight. Honey played a lot but not too well. He must be in a terrible mood. I’ve studied my Religion but not a peep of anything else. I’m afraid these next 3 days are going to be pure purgatory!